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Kat: Mahazda Demolition: Done!

first off, here’s the full set of photographs from the Mahazda demolition project. When the rennovation is complete, I’ll do a before-during-after set of each room.

by mid-April, we were all set to finish everything up, but it was just too much to get done in one day with the group that was able to be there. so that workday ended with both substantial progress, and substantial disappointment. with the big Beltane festival coming up, which we were coordinating, we wanted to be able to wrap this stage of the project up before leaving down for the festival. so we pushed things around in the calendar to free up the Sunday before Beltane, and implored our friends to come help. it turns out we have spectacularly awesome friends; three people came out to put in a full afternoon’s work with us, and with three of us also able to jump in, we got the last of everything done!

now we are in the process of negotiating with the contractor about specific details of the rennovation. this will be a very thorough rennovation: new electric, plumbing, insulation, heating/cooling systems, floors. a large kitchen, two bathrooms, new windows and doors. we will do the kitchen cabinetry and the finish work (trim, cabinets, painting) ourselves, to save costs and put our own hands into the work.

we’d like to put in radiant heat, and wrap the house with strawbales for the most effective insulation (and sound-proofing!). initial estimates for the latter come in higher than we like, but it seems like there ought to be a way to do a strawbale wrap for less. if anybody has any leads on that, please let me know! of course we can do some of the work ourselves, but that also slows the project down, possibly substantially, because of the way we have to schedule ourselves; it’s the group process thing. that is one of the options we’re looking at. but you know, if one of our readers has a cousin who is a contractor who has done strawbale wraps on existing structures before, or something, do *please* drop me a note! yarrow at sunflowerriver dot org. thanks!

Kat: and suddenly, it’s almost June

the spring slips away, just like that: it is Summertime. my favorite season. i am made for the desert heat, the solid caress of sun on bare skin, bare feet in the soil, the rich blue skies and long warm evenings.

we can barely keep up with the garden.
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this weekend, i took time to finally trellis the honeysuckle up front, which was entwined with the spirea. both of them will do better now, and we like the look of the trellis.
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Anactoria, enjoying some afternoon shade:
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our newest crop: butterscotch brats. er, cats. (hard to tell the difference, with that one.)
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the pond is waking up, and has recently experienced some renovations, which Alan will write about in another entry.
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the garden is all fractals.
clary sage:
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sunflower:
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artichokes:
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we’ll get to eat artichokes direct from the garden this year!
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the garden critters are as abundant as the greens. insects proliferate, in spite of the poultry grazing on them. here is a mother wolf spider, helping take care of the bug problem by producing a zillion more wolf spiders for us.
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squash coming in beneath some volunteer tobacco, which we let grow to discourage grasshoppers, and provide some tobacco for ceremonial uses
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mystery flowers:
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we let some dill go to seed last year. best decision ever! now we are overrun with delicous dill!
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Kat: April in the Garden

A quick photo update, while I run around madly getting everything together for Beltane.

bridal spirea, among my favorite flowering shrubs:
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Irises
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these really are this vivid. they smell like vanilla, too.
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greens upon greens
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possibly the best photo of lettuce i’ve ever taken.
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and no photo update is complete without a kitty. here’s Tybalt, blending in, and heading straight for the camera, predictably.
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also, bonus. Aerialist nom-noms. these little guys roam the house and steal things. adorably. now they are learning how to fly on the ceiling fan cords.

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Kat: i love it when i wake up in the morning and it’s spring.

the irises are already blooming. i didn’t manage to take photos this morning, so as usual, my photo post will be a week behind the actual season. we got a little bit of rain yesterday, thank goodness, so this morning the baby greens in their long sprawling rows gleamed against the dark soil of the garden, in the grey light of a cloudy sky.

overnight, it seems, the cottonwoods have leafed.

my view in the mornings:

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my yurt in the sunshine and gleaming tree leaf
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note the long wires extending from both yurts: tie-downs so we don’t blow away in the wind of the rather firm New Mexico spring.

in another sure sign of spring, the Mahazda demolition project is Almost Done. We are within a work party (possibly two, but hopefully one really productive day) of being ready to turn this project over to the contractor. So close!

the floors are up:
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the kitchen counters are out:
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the ceilings are down:
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the back yard has filled with the resulting scrap lumber (much of which is reusable):
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and now we just need to clean all the debris out of the garage
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and attend to some details like placing outlets, and pulling the remainder of the old, dangerous electrical system (aka, the tentacle monster) out of the ceilings.

i just like this photo because it’s kind of surreal.
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Kat: this is why i think we are genuises.

particularly as a group, rather than as individuals. this same group genius, the spirit of the group’s generative power, is what created that floor plan for the Mahazda house that we are so excited to manifest and live in.

so, at Retreat last month, we changed the way we do House Meeting. it’s still every wednesday night, but now we do a planning meeting once a month, and a play meeting the rest of the time, where we get together to spend social time together. each meeting, one person is responsible for setting the activity that we will all do together, and this responsibility rotates among the five of us. last week Kat had us look for the Pan-Starrs Coment (didn’t see it) and then we watched a movie that some friends of mine produced (Ember Days).

last week at house meeting, after some general catching up, Jenny had us play a creative writing game. everybody tosses out some letters, and then we have a few minutes to each write phrases (that more or less make sense and hang together as an English phrase) where each word starts with the selected letters, in order.

so this is what happened.

letters:

T R L D M

travelling rice lady demands money

the real llama didn’t matter

topical relationships leave different metaphors

today red licorice didn’t matter

to really love demands mushies

this religion likes dead men

the real leader died monday

try relaxation. labor demands muscles.

true righteous love does miracles

the red lamp dropped madly

teach respect, laugh during meetings

terrible revelations left David morose

to rest longer dismays me

the random l-cache destroys memory

to reach laughter, distrust motion

testicles reach large diameter macerated

trainers rarely let dogs meander

t-rex loves damian monroe

the regent laughed, danced madly

they risk loving drama more

that rascal lost dillan’s mummy

top right/left does matter

tiny reflections linger, mirror diamonds

trees ripen less during menstruation

totally radical loafers didn’t materialize

truly rare lenses damage music

i think what we got out of this, besides a great deal of entertainment, was a vivid depiction of how our five different ways of being original, being ourselves in the world, interlace into a whole that is more interesting, more integrated, and considerably more creative than any one part. one more joy of living in community.

comments are candy. if you liked these, i’ll put the rest up. we did two more rounds with different letters.

Kat: Furdre, my feral problem child

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this is Furdre. We inherited responsibily for her when we bought the house next door, and I have been very slowly attempting to domesticate her ever since.

Since we started demolition on Mahazda, i’ve taken to feeding her outside my yurt door at night. At first i only knew she was there because the food would vanish, but lately she has let me see her a few times, and we reached a new landmark last night: she ate while i crouched 3′ away, in my doorway, with a camera. i talked softly to her the whole time, so that she will begin to associate my voice with being fed.

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she was a little nervous about the whole thing at first, but ultimately, she was more interested in eating than she was scared of me. she is coming to realize that we are probably not going to harm her. she’s also about five years old, and has lived beside us her whole life; she has ample evidence on which to calm down. Five is darn good for a feral cat, and if i can lure her into being even a partial housecat, that will also extend her life expectancy. we had her spayed at the Humane Society’s Trap-Neuter-Release program a couple years ago, and she got all her shots at that time, too. It’s probably about time to see about more shots. capturing her last time was easy; we left an open can of wet cat food in a cage. At that time, we were setting out to trap and neuter every feral that crosses our property, and we had three other cats to catch. We caught Furdre twice; apparently the first experience wasn’t so bad that it wasn’t worth another can of decent cat food.

last night she even let me take a few flash photos without spooking:
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the main downside to having her mostly living under my yurt, is that she scraps with the other cats. Tybalt in particular seems to inspire scrappiness in the cats around him; he has come home with a couple of nicks. Anactoria, being as jumpy as a frog at sunset, is probably not fighting simply because she is running instead. i haven’t actually observed many interactions among them, but i hear them all at it regularly, and when i go outside, guilty-looking cats scatter in different directions. they have got to get used to sharing space with each other. whether or not she ever moves in, they do all share this land. and it’s pretty reasonable for her to feel that she was here first — but it’s also reasonable for Tybalt and Anactoria (and Masala) to defend their home space.

she has been illicitly entering my yurt (from my perspective, not hers) pretty much since the day i installed the cat door. she comes in to eat. she hasn’t broken anything yet, but i know when she has been there because the bowls are polished clean and pushed all the way up to the dresser. my cats are much more casual about finishing every last bite. and one day a bit over a year ago, i came in to find a dead hummingbird on my rug. there was no way Tattersall had caught a hummingbird. He was retired; he couldn’t even be bothered to chase mice (just look at them with perked ears, unmoving). but Furdre? Furdre is smart, strong, and fast. she has had to be, to live so long as a wild cat. i felt that the hummingbird was a gift of proptiation: yurt dwelling food god, i eat your food, but i give you this.

since i feed my cats grain-free cat food, which is not cheap (but which is very good for their health), i have taken to keeping the cat door blocked when i am away to limit Furdre’s access. but in compensation for this, i have also taken to feeding her her own food (and restricting Tybalt’s access to it! he’ll eat anything). when she domesticates herself, she can eat gourmet cat food. as long as she maintains her distance, we’ll stick with the standard kibble. she is certainly not picky.

she’s doing all right by it, anyway.

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Kat: 2013 Annual Retreat

This is maybe a bit non-linear, and i apologize if that impacts its readability. I’ll do my best.

Each year, Sunflower River takes a long weekend retreat to connect with each other, evaluate our current situation and our long-term goals, and plan our next year. For a variety of reasons, last year’s retreat was really rough for everybody, and we all went into this year’s with a certain amount of trepidation. But we also all showed up with the will to hear each other, ensure that we were all heard, and to repair the rifts. Every one of us stepped up and did their best, and it really showed. By the first night, we were all a lot calmer and clearer, and by the last day, we had accomplished a very great deal, on personal, organizational, and planning levels. It was magical, in the particular way that committment, integrity, love and intensity of purpose combined can be.

This is what our Retreats look like, pretty much for four days.
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Rev is on track to become a Sunflower River Steward. So we re-visited this conversation:

What Makes a Steward?
–decision-making authority supported by the group
–personal projects & visions supported by the group, & as they impact SR, funded & assisted
–our responsibility to take care of the place and each other; we take ownership of the responsibility (as well as of the land and our actions)
–we cannot pass the buck.
–willingness to step up to all this
–focus on action & creation
–philosophical alignment/ acceptance by the group
–intensity of purpose
–1+ year on the land before attending a Retreat
–attending/participating in a Retreat
–accept increased responsibility and do well with it; make decisions that are aligned with the group
–committment (ongoing: we are not walking away from this)
–we don’t account for each other’s time
–we pay what we can, and put in as much time as we can

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In sorting out what exactly it is that we are doing and why we are doing it, we developed the following pyramid, derived loosely from Maslow’s hierarchy of needs.

SR’s hierarchy of needs:

                                   emotional/
   T                             family support
   h
   r                              Stewardship
   i                              
   v                     Project Process (how we perform 
   e                              what we do)

                  Decision Making (how we arrive at what we do)
              
Qualitative 
____________________________________________________________________________

Quantitative
    S                         Operational Control
    u                            (what we do)
    r         
    v                          Resource Control
    i    
    v                      Critical Infrastructure
    e           (water, food, electricity, money, communication)


Why are we here?
-belonging
-group-decision making and problem solving
-retirement security
-participation in a coherent culture that is not a monoculture
-spiritual connection
-resource sharing
-inter-sufficiency
-home base
-something larger than oneself
-opportunity to be stretched & challenged
-surviving/thriving in a changing world
-moral & tangible support for manifesting personal goals

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new projects: barnyard grows north; expanded animal housing. new workshop 20′ square under north elms. Alan’s experimental greenhouse, southeast garden corner. MZ field is 70′x170′; community building as an “addition” to MZ, in field, south-facing.

Gawain’s first acro.
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Social Contract: we have to feel safe enough to say things are broken, without it being blame-oriented, so that we can talk it out and fix it, without brokenness-reporting being a primary goal, but a tool we actually have access to — “no fault fail”

Project Control System
Needs:
–functionality to handle increased complexity on an increased number of projects
–autonomy
–everyone’s needs getting met in project implementation
–efficiency of time & decision-making
–high quality outcomes
–consistent, obvious process
–iteration — feedback — sign-off — project completion — retrospective/evaluation

Project Control
System
1. Temperature Check
2. Background/Context (R&D)
3. Initial Proposal/ Problem Statement
4. Needs Assessment (and modifications as needed to accomodate needs; lather/rinse/repeat)
5. Formal Proposal
6. Stewards all sign off. Project cannot substantively change without bumping back to needs/proposal stage.
7. Do the work. Update everybody as it goes. Hydras are possible here, and they send the project back to Needs/Proposal.
8. Evaluation/Retrospective

formal proposal includes: budget, design, roles, resources, timeline, evalution of risk, operational impact.
sign off must be all Stewards together in person. sign-off expires (needs-re-upping) in six months. sign-off can’t be retracted (no “just not feeling it today” style regrets after that point).

Mahazda

we then spent an entire day sorting out the new floorplan for the now-mostly-gutted Mahazda house (MZ). it’s fantastic. we are collectively so much more brilliant than any of us could be individually. we’re going to make the oldest part of the house, the central big adobe room, into the common room. this is also the largest open space in the house, and making it the community space honors the spirit of the dwelling.

details: if we can put a clerestory roof & windows over the kitchen, we will; we’ll price that out. we want to do a strawbale wrap for insulation. heat is an open question — as passive as possible, but then what? wood floors. light colors, like white oak or similar. sun tunnels in the roof of the kitchen and common room. bay windows in the breakfast nook, office, Jenny’s room, and common room. we can start seeds in them. enlarge the common room window. french doors into the kitchen (where the garage door presently is). all doors in the hallway open away from the hall.

Usages: Jenny & Gawain move into MZ; G gets his own room. Tristan moves into Jenny’s current room. Cottage livingroom becomes the Library; cottage south bedroom becomes the Craft Room. MZ also holds an office, a large common room, a generous kitchen (at last!), with a breakfast nook, a utility/mud room area at the back door, and two bathrooms, at the front & back of the house. (i’ll try to post an image of the new floor plan. we moved EVERYTHING. the garage is the kitchen, the “back bedroom” is the breakfast nook, the whole adobe center remains open for common space, the kitchen is G’s room, the livingroom divides into office and J’s room. Bryan wins and we do put a bathroom where the pantry was [he initially said we would], and the back bathroom is at the far back of what is presently the garage but will be the kitchen.)

House Meeting

House Meeting has been variously broken for a while now. we identified three needs it fulfills: planning, emotional support, and social time together. we blew it once through overplanning (we drowned in our agenda) and once by failing to be capable of providing emotional support for each other. we are addressing that. new house meeting strategy: dedicated planning meeting the first week of every month. other meetings will be social, and we’ll do something together (even if that is to just chill, or do any kind of activity one can do on a wednesday evening), and who is in charge of organizing the activity (or picking up the beer, you know) will rotate, alphabetically, amongst us all. this should take a lot of pressure off, stretch us in interesting ways socially, and provide some real fun. as well as providing a dedicated planning space. we’ll re-evalute this system in 3 months to see if it’s working, or if we need to tweak it, or if we need to pitch it and try something else new.

Electrical Infrastructure

sooner or later, we need to make the Cottage be 200 amp instead of 100. unfortunately, this will require re-wiring some or all of the cottage, and the pump house. the barn is probably okay given that we are going to build a workshop, so the tools will move. eventually. things that will probably stay on conventional grid for a while: cottage, MZ, barn, hottub, workshop. Things that could go solar incrementally, much sooner: potting shed, greenhouse, AP system, yurts, barnyard (coop lights), hexayurts (proposed wwoofer housing we plan to build in the green belt this summer), abbatoir area. we’d like to create a series of small independent systems with interchangeable parts, so that it will scale up, and integrate.

Here’s Gawain cleaning up after us:
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every retreat needs cute animal pictures.
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and it’s awfully nice to come home to this:
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Tristan: Ostara Invitation!

Each year we host an Ostara celebration to honor the return of Spring.

We are honored to have the local May King and Queen each year help us celebrate!
Consider the following your invitation!

Hear ye! Hear ye!

Her Royal Highness the Queen of the May
and
His Royal Highness the King of the May

Cordially invite you to an Ostara Ritual at Sunflower River.

On March 24th at 1pm in the light of the day,
the May Royalty will celebrate
the awakening of the Mother Earth and the Father Sun restored,
Starting Your Garden with a sprinkle of You Are The Seed.

What to Bring:
Yourself in proper attire for an outdoor ritual.
Some libation or other consumable to share.
Music makers of all kinds.
A friend or few (but let us know approximately how many are attending)
But please car pool as parking is limited and only available on street.

When to Bring:
Any time after 1pm you are most welcome to present yourself to the denizens of Sunflower River.

The ritual will take place at 2 pm
followed by feasting, dancing and sharing of music.

Where to Bring:
Sunflower River – Directions upon request by emailing
(sergray@megistus.com) or calling 505-453-1238
(yes this is a sneaky way to get people to RSVP)

Why to Bring:
Because The May Royals Ali and Raian
request your presence for this auspicious occasion.

Blessings of The May upon you.

Humbly – A Royal Scribe of the May.
Tristan

ps. This is a semi-public event on private land please RSVP to
tfin@megistus.com/505-453-1238
so we can anticipate your numbers.

And please come with a respect for
the land and its many occupants
large or small, moving or stationary.

Kat: bathroom remodel photos

a few weeks ago, we decided we weren’t getting enough demolition in our lives, so instead of going to the Sky Island party that everybody was talking about, Jenny, Rev and I, with assistance from Kay, Amber and Alan (who all took on child-care and fetch-quests in support of the project), took apart the cottage bathroom, and put it together again.

here are the results of my 10pm tile-laying activity:
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and Jenny’s committment to turning the bathtub tiles Actually White, and the walls a nice mild blue:
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(here’s a midway-through photo on that front):
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(including the mysterious grout otter, center of the top row)
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and Rev’s shelf-building activities over the previous weeks:
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and Gawain’s persistent desire to be in the middle of things:
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we are all very pleased with the new look, and the nice cleanable tile floor, and the massively improved storage situation. there’s one more shelf to install, and a few small paint touch-ups to take care of, and then the project is well and truly finished.